The Definition Of Meghan - Self Loathing
Ok, so that's what my shrink calls it. "Meghan, I sense some self-loathing here..." Um, you think? Ok...yesterday's rant was particularly pathetic, and that I apologize for. Sometimes I even disgust myself. So I figured I'd better do some damage control.
It's ok people, I'm fine...put away the suicide hotline numbers. I'm not ready to buy it yet. Relax.
That being said, let me explain a little bit about my issues. I've said it many times, but I feel the need to reiterate. One of my major malfunctions is that I tend to overreact. I'm not talking small potatos whining, I'm talking "I want to die because I've misplaced my headphones!" Ok? Rediculous, I know...but hey, it's me. So yesterday I was having a particularly crappy day. I overreacted...the result..my blog entry. It's not like I was lieing. I really did feel that way yesterday. Today the problems are the same, but I am handling them better. Partly because I went shopping yesterday. Anyone who says shopping isn't a drug is insane. I could feel the positive endorphins flood my brain as I slid my credit card to the cashier. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. Relief.
I'm always going to have my ups and downs. Hell, the definition of my defect is UPS and DOWNS. Like, to the extreme. My main focus as of late is to try to tone them down...or up...depending on the situation. You get me.
I still haven't quite figured out how to do that...but I'm working on it. Until I find the solution, you're just going to have to put up with the extremes. But hey, it's entertainment. Use it to poke fun at me. I don't mind.
So...in closing...I'm fine. No big deal. Situation normal...all fucked up.
Ok, so that's what my shrink calls it. "Meghan, I sense some self-loathing here..." Um, you think? Ok...yesterday's rant was particularly pathetic, and that I apologize for. Sometimes I even disgust myself. So I figured I'd better do some damage control.
It's ok people, I'm fine...put away the suicide hotline numbers. I'm not ready to buy it yet. Relax.
That being said, let me explain a little bit about my issues. I've said it many times, but I feel the need to reiterate. One of my major malfunctions is that I tend to overreact. I'm not talking small potatos whining, I'm talking "I want to die because I've misplaced my headphones!" Ok? Rediculous, I know...but hey, it's me. So yesterday I was having a particularly crappy day. I overreacted...the result..my blog entry. It's not like I was lieing. I really did feel that way yesterday. Today the problems are the same, but I am handling them better. Partly because I went shopping yesterday. Anyone who says shopping isn't a drug is insane. I could feel the positive endorphins flood my brain as I slid my credit card to the cashier. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. Relief.
I'm always going to have my ups and downs. Hell, the definition of my defect is UPS and DOWNS. Like, to the extreme. My main focus as of late is to try to tone them down...or up...depending on the situation. You get me.
I still haven't quite figured out how to do that...but I'm working on it. Until I find the solution, you're just going to have to put up with the extremes. But hey, it's entertainment. Use it to poke fun at me. I don't mind.
So...in closing...I'm fine. No big deal. Situation normal...all fucked up.
posted by Meghan at 3:16 PM
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