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Can't go into detail. Have to rant. Feeling so sick and out of it that I can barely stand it. Torture. That's what this is. I can't think straight, can't move without getting dizzy. Can barely type this. Feel horrible all the time. Break downs all day long. What the hell am I doing? I can't handle this! Just want to curl into a ball and sleep...sleep the days away. Stuck in the Pit for another week and can barely make it through the day here. I'm worthless here. There is no point. But I'm broke, need the money. REALLY need the money. Can't let myself go home and curl into that ball. This is so much worse than last time. Why am I being punished? Torture.