Love Kills

No, it's not just the name of a great Circle Jerks song, it really is true.

So here it is...the big news...the crap that's been weighing me down the last few weeks...

Fran and I are seperating. He's moving out. It wasn't a screaming match or anything like that. We both agreed it was best for right now. We're still going to go to the counselor and we haven't given up totally, but we're making each other miserable right now and that just isn't fair. Especially for the kids. We told Kimi on Sunday night and she was understandably upset. But she seemed to handle it ok. She didn't even cry, her eyes were watery, but she didn't cry. She said she was sad but that a lot of her friends have gone through this. That's not very comforting, it just makes it even sadder.

So tonight he's packing and he'll be leaving tomorrow. He'll still be around quite a bit though, for the kids. We're doing the every other weekend thing, but I told him he could come by whenever he wanted to see them. No matter what happens between us, I want him to be there for my kids. And I know he will be, he's always been a good dad.

So, for those of you I promised to call this weekend and didn't, I'm sorry. My head's been in a weird place and I haven't been in much of a mood to talk. I hope you guys can understand.

To top it all off, my computer is fried and I haven't been able to do any writing or work on my collection. It's killing me. I can write free hand, but that shit gets tiring real quick. I don't know how long it's gonna take to get it fixed. So I'm depressed about that.

Life sucks and then you die. My new freakin motto.

Anyway, I better run. Just wanted to catch you all up. Later.....