On A Sour Note
The last few days have been shitty...beyond shitty. So shitty that I wonder what I did in a past life to make this one so fucking shitty.
Let's make a list...in no particular order:
1. Getting sued by a hospital because my insurance refuses to pay a bill it should, and I can't afford to pay it myself.
2. PSE&G is threatening to cut off my gas because the bill is so high, I can't seem to keep on top of it.
3. I lost my best friend for reasons I can't comprehend and it's torn a hole right in my heart.
4. I had to give my cat to a shelter today because I can't keep up with his peeing in the house anymore.
5. The job I work my ass off for doesn't seem to want me to advance, hence no extra money, hence not being able to pay my bills.
6. My parents have to sell their house (it's a duplex, I rent one side) because I can't afford to pay them rent and they can't keep up the mortgage payments without it.
7. Because my parents have to sell the house we all have to move in with my brother in one big house. I can't get my own place because...I CAN'T AFFORD IT!
Those are the big ones, but there are dozens more little things that seem trivial alone but when put together cause quite a bit of depression. How am I supposed to stay positive? I swear, all I need is one more little thing to push me right over the edge into complete insanity.
I'm getting out tonight. Hitting up movie night at my friend Mary's. I just hope I don't bring the evening down with my sourness.
Let's make a list...in no particular order:
1. Getting sued by a hospital because my insurance refuses to pay a bill it should, and I can't afford to pay it myself.
2. PSE&G is threatening to cut off my gas because the bill is so high, I can't seem to keep on top of it.
3. I lost my best friend for reasons I can't comprehend and it's torn a hole right in my heart.
4. I had to give my cat to a shelter today because I can't keep up with his peeing in the house anymore.
5. The job I work my ass off for doesn't seem to want me to advance, hence no extra money, hence not being able to pay my bills.
6. My parents have to sell their house (it's a duplex, I rent one side) because I can't afford to pay them rent and they can't keep up the mortgage payments without it.
7. Because my parents have to sell the house we all have to move in with my brother in one big house. I can't get my own place because...I CAN'T AFFORD IT!
Those are the big ones, but there are dozens more little things that seem trivial alone but when put together cause quite a bit of depression. How am I supposed to stay positive? I swear, all I need is one more little thing to push me right over the edge into complete insanity.
I'm getting out tonight. Hitting up movie night at my friend Mary's. I just hope I don't bring the evening down with my sourness.
posted by Meghan at 6:43 PM
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