Meghan - The Queen Of Bitch

Just thought I'd give you an update. Spoke to my friend today, though I didn't exactly get the answers I was looking for. It's actually worse than I thought.

They're not mad at me, they don't hate me, they're just pulling away in order to make themself happy. I didn't do anything wrong, per se, but when you get right down to it, I did. I've said some things and done some things as of late that haven't been what a good friend should say and do. I've known this person long enough, and have been told enough times what they need and what they don't need. But me being me, I push. I pushed too hard and I don't really blame them for bailing.

I don't know where things are at. This person claims that they are not cutting me off, but that they need to take care of themself and do things differently. I'm paraphrasing because to get too into the conversation would bring up some privacy issues. Let's just say that I know what I did wrong, I feel like shit about it, and it's something I probably can't fix.

I did what I do best, push people who care away. Drive them to the point where they don't care anymore. I'm like a freakin virus. Fair warning...I'm toxic. It's best that everyone just steer clear of me. I've lost the last person I'm going to lose. I refuse to do this anymore.