Coming Up For Air
Well, it's Sunday, the baby's napping, my parents are out, Kimi is watching TV...in a nutshell, I'm bored. If I leave myself to my own devices too long, I start to get mopey and analyze crap, and none of us want that. I thought I'd go online and try to keep my mind occupied. Not really working. So I figured I'd come here and kill some time.
Lately I've just been trying to find ways to keep myself busy until it's time for bed. Work helps take up a good chunk. It's when I get home that I have a problem. There's usually a good 2 to 3 hours to kill before both kids are in bed. Then once they're asleep, I usually go to bed too. It's better than being awake and thinking about shit.
I went to Connecticut for work this weekend. Left Friday around 3ish and returned last night about 5. It was exhausting, but I went down with some co-workers, so I had fun too. I'm taking my vacation this week. Not going anywhere, but figured I better use my PTO now since you can't take it between Nov. 15th and January 15th...then you lose them. I wish I could take the kids somewhere, but I have less than no money. I owe everyone, and now that I'm down to one salary (if you can call what I make a salary) things are even tighter. In fact, I'm hoping my payment to the electric company makes it there before they shut off my power. So needless to say, this should be an interesting week without work to keep me busy.
So I'd say that I'm at a low point in my life. Unfortunately it doesn't look like it will be improving any time soon. I'm continuing to go to my therapist though, because let's face it, I need professional help. I'm even considering going back on the medication bandwagon...but I don't know yet.
Ok, this post is extremely boring and not particularly helpful to me. I'm gonna go before this turns into a pity pot post.
Lately I've just been trying to find ways to keep myself busy until it's time for bed. Work helps take up a good chunk. It's when I get home that I have a problem. There's usually a good 2 to 3 hours to kill before both kids are in bed. Then once they're asleep, I usually go to bed too. It's better than being awake and thinking about shit.
I went to Connecticut for work this weekend. Left Friday around 3ish and returned last night about 5. It was exhausting, but I went down with some co-workers, so I had fun too. I'm taking my vacation this week. Not going anywhere, but figured I better use my PTO now since you can't take it between Nov. 15th and January 15th...then you lose them. I wish I could take the kids somewhere, but I have less than no money. I owe everyone, and now that I'm down to one salary (if you can call what I make a salary) things are even tighter. In fact, I'm hoping my payment to the electric company makes it there before they shut off my power. So needless to say, this should be an interesting week without work to keep me busy.
So I'd say that I'm at a low point in my life. Unfortunately it doesn't look like it will be improving any time soon. I'm continuing to go to my therapist though, because let's face it, I need professional help. I'm even considering going back on the medication bandwagon...but I don't know yet.
Ok, this post is extremely boring and not particularly helpful to me. I'm gonna go before this turns into a pity pot post.
posted by Meghan at 3:09 PM
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Thanks hun. I'll give you a call some time this week. I'm going to try to edit your comment to take out your phone number. Probably not a good idea to give it to the world. :) If that doesn't work, I'm just going to delete your post. Nothing personal, just don't want a bunch of whackos calling you!
thnaks sweetie! was not thinking when i posted - forgot that everyone could read the post not just you! hope you are hanging in there! melanie
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