Music To Suit My Mood

Here ya go...this is how I've been feeling lately:

Another World
by Beborn Beton

There is no use in dying
When still I seem to be undone
There is no use in trying to find again
The love of someone
Where have I gone and come so far
Well, I've been headed nowhere
I have been walking quite a while along
Feeling lonesome

Don't you worry, they won't find my body
I want you to know
I found peace in another world
Don't keep digging, I want you to leave
Back away from the place
Where my ashes are buried

I still can hear your breathing
As if you'd never gone away
I still can feel your touch, your tenderness
As if you were still there
There is no sense in crying
Only liquid running from my eyes
And all the feelings I restrain
Are the remainders that survived

Don't you worry, they won't find my body
I want you to know
I found peace in another world
Don't keep digging, I want you to leave
Back away from the place
Where my ashes are buried

God I love that song. It's on a mix I made that I listen to on the way to work every morning. The whole mix really seems to jibe with how I'm feeling lately. Other songs on this one are Closure; by Chevelle, Too Young To Die, by Agent Orange; Thorns (I can't remember who does that one); Love Never Dies, by Apop (don't even ask me to spell the real name of the band); and Ringfinger, by NIN. There's a lot more on it, but you just the jist.

So, it's been awhile since I've posted. Things really haven't changed. Fran and I are still living in the same house, but I wouldn't call it a marriage. It's not even like we fight anymore, we really haven't argued in awhile. It's almost like we're pretending everything is great. We both work a lot, so what little time we do have together is spent watching TV. We really don't talk much at all. It's almost as if we're just roommates. I don't know how much longer this phase will continue, but I do know it will come to an end eventually. I just hope that what comes after doesn't cause irrepairable damage.

Well, I better run for now. Got some stuff to do before heading out of work. Till next time...