A Little Clarification

The situation with my friend has improved. Though, I'm still annoyed that every other month or so I seem to have to go through this. I'm a firm believer in loyalty to friends and my friends (after my kids and close family, of course) are the world to me. I would never do anything to intentionally jeapordize my relationships with them, and I would be there in a heartbeat for ANYTHING they needed...no questions asked, no judgements made. I expect the same kind of loyalty and committment from my friends, but maybe that's a bit too much to ask sometimes. I also know that people are people and human tendencies seem to get in the way sometimes. Not everybody sees things the same way...if they did, the world would be a boring place indeed.

So yes, this friend hurt my feelings and made me feel lower than low. But he/she is my friend and I love him/her...faults and all. I won't hold this over their head or cut them off or anything like that. I forgive, I forget, I move on. And should he/she pull something like this again, I will still be there for him/her...I will forgive, forget, and move on. That's just who I am.That's not to say that I'm going to just let people walk all over me. Those that know me know that's just not my style. When I feel close to someone, and as of this posting that list is VERY small, it takes a lot to get rid of me. But yes, one day, depending on situations and what's happened and the person's attitude...I may turn my back. I have left behind friends that I used to consider family. Because when it becomes detrimental to my mental health...I gotta let them go.

Anyway, things with this friend are going to be permanently different for several reasons, but I can still call them my friend. Life is a little weird right now, but I just keep on keepin on. I have no other choice.