Meghan 2.0 - Part 1
I had wanted to get to this sooner, but life has been hectic. Work especially, we're short staffed as it is and for the past 2 weeks we've had people out on vacation. So I've been putting in a ton of hours. Hell, I'm at work right now! heh But the overtime is good for me right now. I need as much as I can get. :) Anyhoo, enough about that. Let's get to what's important.
Introduction to Meg: Version 2.0
Being a writer (and becoming more organized being one of my goals in this new version of me) I'm going to document this life changing event in proper order. Today's segment is going to be the overall introduction into what I'm doing with myself. This project is about changing my life for the better, and it won't be overnight. So in order to make sure I do this right, I need to map out my plan...my strategy, if you will.
So...why don't I start by using a mission statement. My pledge to myself. A few simple lines outlining the goal of this whole thing.
I, Meghan Lynn Fatras, do solemly pledge in front of everyone out there in cyberspace, to rearrange my life in order to become a more positive, motivated, productive, and happy person. I shall use these changes to become a better mother, daughter, sister, friend, employee...a better person all around. I shall create an action plan, that may be added to as needed, and stick to it at all costs.
I will welcome comments, questions, and advice from those who decide to watch me on my journey, but ask that you please only interject with the serious intent of learning from and/or helping me through this. All negative (that's not to say constructive criticism isn't allowed) and mean-spirited comments will be deleted. I thank you in advance for your support.
Ok, in order to create an action plan, I need to list what it is that I need to work on. First I will create a list of the main areas in my life that need grave attention. This list will be added to as life will continue to throw curveballs my way. But I have to start somewhere. This is my general list so far...and right now, is in no particular order. I'm just throwing stuff out off the top of my head and will organize it at another time. Here goes:
1. My career - This entails what I do to bring home the bacon at the moment, and is not meant to include my writing. At least not at this time. Many complaints I've been making have to do with my job, so this is a major source of negativity. My goal with this one is to simply find a way to earn a living without killing myself, working at something I can at least mildly enjoy and take pride in.
2. My "romantic" life - This includes both my current situation of seperation pending divorce, and my romantic life after said divorce. This is obviously a very painful area right now causing much of my stress and depression. Though there is no way to turn this area into a happy time curretly, there are ways to handle it in a more positve and productive manner, thus helping it to eventually become a "happy place" so to speak.
3. Living situation - As most of you readers know, I will be leaving my current residence in just a few short months and will be moving into a large home with both my kids, my parents, and my brother. Going from having my own place (albeit right next door to my parents) to this...even a large house...has sank my confidence in making it on my own. This is one of the negatives that I know I can turn into a positive. It just takes some time and effort.
4. Family - A large one that encompasses lots of sub-issues. But we'll get into all those once I start my action plan. For now, it mainly includes my relationship with my kids, and my parents. For a long time I feel like I have lazily been relying on my parents for so much when it comes to my kids. I feel more like a sibling to them than a mother. This is hurtful to everyone involved and needs dire attention. They're 11 and 2...every minute with them counts. In the same respect, my relationship with my parents is strained because of everything they do for me and my kids, and my lack of respect for them. Not that it is intentional, but it's a problem.
5. My mental health - As the title of this site clearly states, though I am not nearly loony enough to be locked away in some psych ward or need constant suicide watch, my mental health has been a constant issue that affects every facet of my life. I need to take control of this and really try to get some balance. Whether this requires medication, more visits to my shrink, more tests from my docs...whatever it takes, I need to get on top of it.
6. My writing - Yes, this gets its own area. Not my "career" as far as making a living, but certainly not just a hobby I flit around with either. I haven't written a word of fiction in so long, haven't worked on my collection, my novel, even any articles. This kills me. It's hard when you're in a funk to see through it all and do the things you love...but I need writing like I need breathing. This is my life, this is when I'm truly happy. I don't feel whole without it. I need to get back into the swing of things...and soon.
7. My body - May seem like a weird area to address among all these others, but it has a huge impact on my self-esteem which has a huge impact on all facets of my life. I need to get to a point where I am comfortable in my own skin. I may not need to be a size 3, but I certainly have to build my confidence level.
There you have the main list. I may add to it as I feel necessary, but I certainly won't take any of them away. I mean, I will create an action plan for each of these which I hope to cross off goals as I accomplish them, but I will always need to keep working on all these areas in order to maintain a positive and productive existence. You'll note that some areas kind of overlap and, as you will soon discover, my action plan and steps will sometimes cross over.
But for now I think I have written enough. I need to digest all of this and start developing my strategies. I'm thinkng a whole new blog should probably be devoted to this. I shall think about that some more as well. So I'll leave you all to ponder and comment...and will be back soon with the next installment. Ciao for now...
Introduction to Meg: Version 2.0
Being a writer (and becoming more organized being one of my goals in this new version of me) I'm going to document this life changing event in proper order. Today's segment is going to be the overall introduction into what I'm doing with myself. This project is about changing my life for the better, and it won't be overnight. So in order to make sure I do this right, I need to map out my plan...my strategy, if you will.
So...why don't I start by using a mission statement. My pledge to myself. A few simple lines outlining the goal of this whole thing.
I, Meghan Lynn Fatras, do solemly pledge in front of everyone out there in cyberspace, to rearrange my life in order to become a more positive, motivated, productive, and happy person. I shall use these changes to become a better mother, daughter, sister, friend, employee...a better person all around. I shall create an action plan, that may be added to as needed, and stick to it at all costs.
I will welcome comments, questions, and advice from those who decide to watch me on my journey, but ask that you please only interject with the serious intent of learning from and/or helping me through this. All negative (that's not to say constructive criticism isn't allowed) and mean-spirited comments will be deleted. I thank you in advance for your support.
Ok, in order to create an action plan, I need to list what it is that I need to work on. First I will create a list of the main areas in my life that need grave attention. This list will be added to as life will continue to throw curveballs my way. But I have to start somewhere. This is my general list so far...and right now, is in no particular order. I'm just throwing stuff out off the top of my head and will organize it at another time. Here goes:
1. My career - This entails what I do to bring home the bacon at the moment, and is not meant to include my writing. At least not at this time. Many complaints I've been making have to do with my job, so this is a major source of negativity. My goal with this one is to simply find a way to earn a living without killing myself, working at something I can at least mildly enjoy and take pride in.
2. My "romantic" life - This includes both my current situation of seperation pending divorce, and my romantic life after said divorce. This is obviously a very painful area right now causing much of my stress and depression. Though there is no way to turn this area into a happy time curretly, there are ways to handle it in a more positve and productive manner, thus helping it to eventually become a "happy place" so to speak.
3. Living situation - As most of you readers know, I will be leaving my current residence in just a few short months and will be moving into a large home with both my kids, my parents, and my brother. Going from having my own place (albeit right next door to my parents) to this...even a large house...has sank my confidence in making it on my own. This is one of the negatives that I know I can turn into a positive. It just takes some time and effort.
4. Family - A large one that encompasses lots of sub-issues. But we'll get into all those once I start my action plan. For now, it mainly includes my relationship with my kids, and my parents. For a long time I feel like I have lazily been relying on my parents for so much when it comes to my kids. I feel more like a sibling to them than a mother. This is hurtful to everyone involved and needs dire attention. They're 11 and 2...every minute with them counts. In the same respect, my relationship with my parents is strained because of everything they do for me and my kids, and my lack of respect for them. Not that it is intentional, but it's a problem.
5. My mental health - As the title of this site clearly states, though I am not nearly loony enough to be locked away in some psych ward or need constant suicide watch, my mental health has been a constant issue that affects every facet of my life. I need to take control of this and really try to get some balance. Whether this requires medication, more visits to my shrink, more tests from my docs...whatever it takes, I need to get on top of it.
6. My writing - Yes, this gets its own area. Not my "career" as far as making a living, but certainly not just a hobby I flit around with either. I haven't written a word of fiction in so long, haven't worked on my collection, my novel, even any articles. This kills me. It's hard when you're in a funk to see through it all and do the things you love...but I need writing like I need breathing. This is my life, this is when I'm truly happy. I don't feel whole without it. I need to get back into the swing of things...and soon.
7. My body - May seem like a weird area to address among all these others, but it has a huge impact on my self-esteem which has a huge impact on all facets of my life. I need to get to a point where I am comfortable in my own skin. I may not need to be a size 3, but I certainly have to build my confidence level.
There you have the main list. I may add to it as I feel necessary, but I certainly won't take any of them away. I mean, I will create an action plan for each of these which I hope to cross off goals as I accomplish them, but I will always need to keep working on all these areas in order to maintain a positive and productive existence. You'll note that some areas kind of overlap and, as you will soon discover, my action plan and steps will sometimes cross over.
But for now I think I have written enough. I need to digest all of this and start developing my strategies. I'm thinkng a whole new blog should probably be devoted to this. I shall think about that some more as well. So I'll leave you all to ponder and comment...and will be back soon with the next installment. Ciao for now...
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