My Very Favorite Time Of Year
Despite the problems I've been dealing with lately, I just can't ignore the beauty that is autumn. It's my favorite season, October is my favorite month, and Halloween is my favorite holiday. So it's hard for me to stay depressed for very long this time of year. Sure I'm drowning in debt and dragging my parents down with me. Sure I'm still not working and the future is looking bleak. Sure my hubby still acts like he couldn't care less about this pregnancy. But hey, it's fall! The weather is beautiful, just the way I like it...a crisp chill in the air, but not cold enough for winter jackets. The leaves have all turned gold, red, and orange. The smell of fireplaces, the sound of crunching leaves, the way the sky looks as the sun goes down. Somehow, sitting out on my proch, just breathing in the air and staring at the wonder of nature makes everything seem ok.
Had an appointment on the 16th. Fran got to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. He didn't seem all that impressed. I don't know how I thought he'd react. He's not angry or mopey about the pregnancy...just very ambivalent. He just doesn't seem to be into it. Not that I don't think he cares, he's just not good at showing it. I know how worried he is about the financial situation, and with the baby coming, he feels stuck in a job he hates, pushing his dreams back even further. I can understand. It's just hard when the person you're closest too doesn't share in the joys of your pregnancy. I kinda feel like I'm doing it alone.....again. At least emotionally.
I made my appointment for the ultrasound. So hopefully I'll find out if I'm having a boy or a girl on Nov. 14th. I'm taking my daughter out of school early and hoping that Fran can take an extended lunch. I think it's important for the whole family to be involved. People keep asking me if I want a boy or a girl. After the CF scare, I can honestly say I don't care...I just want a healthy baby. Sure, a boy would be nice since I already have a girl. But then again, I know how to raise a girl already. So to me, it really doesn't matter. But most of the family wants a boy. We'll just have to wait and see.
Halloween is fast approaching. Fran and I took Kimi to a farm out in Newton to go pumpkin picking on Sunday. We nabbed a small, medium, and large. Afterwards we checked out the animals (baby cow, bunnies, sheep, and hogs) and went through this amazing corn maze. It was sprawled across 10 acres. We wandered around for a good hour. Thankfully the weather was nice. We also took a hay ride and chowed down on donuts and hot chocolate. It was a wonderful day. I sorely needed it. We all did. That night we carved our pumpkins (mine is a vampire...of course) and decorated our front yard. I officially am in the Halloween spirit...though I still need to get a costume. I was thinking of being Amanda Krueger...Freddy's mom. Hell, it's easy enough for me to be a pregnant nun!
Well, I've rambled on long enough. Time to go start dinner.
Despite the problems I've been dealing with lately, I just can't ignore the beauty that is autumn. It's my favorite season, October is my favorite month, and Halloween is my favorite holiday. So it's hard for me to stay depressed for very long this time of year. Sure I'm drowning in debt and dragging my parents down with me. Sure I'm still not working and the future is looking bleak. Sure my hubby still acts like he couldn't care less about this pregnancy. But hey, it's fall! The weather is beautiful, just the way I like it...a crisp chill in the air, but not cold enough for winter jackets. The leaves have all turned gold, red, and orange. The smell of fireplaces, the sound of crunching leaves, the way the sky looks as the sun goes down. Somehow, sitting out on my proch, just breathing in the air and staring at the wonder of nature makes everything seem ok.
Had an appointment on the 16th. Fran got to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. He didn't seem all that impressed. I don't know how I thought he'd react. He's not angry or mopey about the pregnancy...just very ambivalent. He just doesn't seem to be into it. Not that I don't think he cares, he's just not good at showing it. I know how worried he is about the financial situation, and with the baby coming, he feels stuck in a job he hates, pushing his dreams back even further. I can understand. It's just hard when the person you're closest too doesn't share in the joys of your pregnancy. I kinda feel like I'm doing it alone.....again. At least emotionally.
I made my appointment for the ultrasound. So hopefully I'll find out if I'm having a boy or a girl on Nov. 14th. I'm taking my daughter out of school early and hoping that Fran can take an extended lunch. I think it's important for the whole family to be involved. People keep asking me if I want a boy or a girl. After the CF scare, I can honestly say I don't care...I just want a healthy baby. Sure, a boy would be nice since I already have a girl. But then again, I know how to raise a girl already. So to me, it really doesn't matter. But most of the family wants a boy. We'll just have to wait and see.
Halloween is fast approaching. Fran and I took Kimi to a farm out in Newton to go pumpkin picking on Sunday. We nabbed a small, medium, and large. Afterwards we checked out the animals (baby cow, bunnies, sheep, and hogs) and went through this amazing corn maze. It was sprawled across 10 acres. We wandered around for a good hour. Thankfully the weather was nice. We also took a hay ride and chowed down on donuts and hot chocolate. It was a wonderful day. I sorely needed it. We all did. That night we carved our pumpkins (mine is a vampire...of course) and decorated our front yard. I officially am in the Halloween spirit...though I still need to get a costume. I was thinking of being Amanda Krueger...Freddy's mom. Hell, it's easy enough for me to be a pregnant nun!
Well, I've rambled on long enough. Time to go start dinner.
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