Time For A Change

I've been with Blogger since 2002, and though we've had our moments, I have always enjoyed the space and the tools here. Blogger has served me well over the years, given me room to vent my frustrations and go off about whatever nonsense struck me as important. Blogger is almost like family.

I know, I know, cut the melodrama. The fact is, it's time for me to move on. Nothing personal with Blogger, just a need to close the door on this part of my life. Many of you have been with me from the beginning, some of you just hopped on board. But any semi-regular reader of this blog knows that the past year has been anything but stable. I've finally reached a point where I am happy, satisfied with where my life is, and is going. I have a new attitude and am looking toward the future with determination, peace, and a newfound sense of myself.

Meghan Fatras is dead and gone. Meghan Knierim is here now (back to my maiden name, yes) and ready to get crack-a-lackin. Soon I will have a new website to unveil, but for now, I hope you will join me over at my new space for rants and vents and whatever else strikes my fancy. Morbid Musings

This will be my last post here at Blogger. I hope you will continue to spy on me over at LJ. It's a great place, and though right now it's still looking kinda flat, I will, in time, dress it up and make her purdy.

Thank you to everyone who has been there over the years, those who laughed with me, watched me cry, soothed the savage beast, and most of all, supported me no matter what it was I was going on about. You guys give me the strength to keep moving forward.

And a special thanks to Blogger. Without you, I would have surely gone insane.

Bah!

My head is in 30 different places today, most of them happy. Unfortunately, people can not leave well enough alone, so I need to get nasty on occassion. Yesterday was a not-so-great day. I'd say "crappy" day, but lately, that's just not the case. I mean, I get mad, I yell, I get snippy and snarky, but I CAN'T on a whole say that any day in the last few weeks has been BAD. I have to thank synchronicity for that...and someone special who knows who he is.

Remember my so-called "friend" that seemed to cause more harm than good? Well, that shits OVER! I told you that I put up with a lot, and am very understanding when it comes to close friends. But I hit my limit. I'm trying to simplify my life now. I need to maintain a level of happiness and peace...and lately that has been easy. So I'm cutting out the drama like a cancer. It's time to clean house and start worrying about myself for a change. I'm not out to hurt anyone's feelings or be mean. I'm simply out to be as happy as I can be, take care of the important stuff, and just friggin enjoy myself for once. I don't think that's so selfish.

Yes, in the process, I have to do some things that are not pleasant, but I know it's worthwhile in the end. My good friends have noticed a marked improvement in my attitude and demeanor as of late. I like that. It wasn't until very recently that I realized just how miserable I was...and how miserable I was making other people. But that's over now.

Life is good. I haven't been able to say that in so long.

Oh, and on a side note, I just want to say to that special someone...watch out, Sasquatch is watching! Heh!

As promised...

Check this shit out!

The Human Orchestra

MSI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so most of you know my obsession with music, and, one of my all time favorite bands played this weekend. I went to see Mindless Self Indulgence at the Avalon in NYC last night. OH MY FUCKING GOD! I know, I know, I've said it before, but it definitely needs repeating. GO SEE THEM LIVE! I don't care where you live or what you like to listen to, this is perhaps the most creative and brilliant band EVER! Don't believe me? Go pick up their newest CD, You'll Rebel to Anything (as Long as it's Not Challenging). Fucking SOLID!

On a side note, Kenny the Human Beatbox opened for them. I have to give that man some serious respect. He was AMAZING! It was just him, no background music. Fucking BRILLIANT! I don't know his website off-hand, but I will find it and post at a later time. Right now I'm being summoned to put the little one to bed. Just had to pop on and remind you all that if you don't know MSI, SHAME SHAME SHAME!

Over and out!

My New Way Of Thinking

With all that's happened over the past few weeks...I have no choice. I can't deny it!

Synchronicity


Right on!

;)

On A High...

...and I hope it lasts. I swear, I know when it rains it pours, but it also seems as if when things go right, so much falls into place. Right now, things are adding up in my favor, and for once, I'm not cowering in fear...waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm enjoying it as it comes. When crap hits the fan, like it always does for everyone, at least I know I have the support to face it.

I started my new job today. Obviously, it being my first day, I didn't exactly get buried in work, but I did do some actual work. Most of the day was spent putzing around the computer system, getting acclimated to the MAC and all the programs they use. I did some proofing, and studied the style. My boss is really cool. I can tell I'm going to like it there. :) About damn time!

In other good news, I was able to extract some of my work from my useless computer. I can now continue work on my collection on the laptop until such time as I am able to resurrect the beast. It feels so good to get back into the swing of things. I hope to have a publishable product within the next few months. Won't that be something! I actually remember that I'm a writer! HA!

Things have definitely been improving for me the last few weeks, but that's not to say I haven't had my share of bad news. I can't go into detail about it, but the reason I bring it up is because normally the bad would outweight the good. My usual response would be to simply bitch about the bad and totally ignore the good that is happening to me. But for once, I feel that I can get through the bad, because of the good. Am I making sense...or babbling?

Anyhoo, I just wanted to fill you in on what's been going on. Soon enough I will be able to drop my cryptic references...well, at least some of them. A gal's gotta keep some things private...right? ;)

Surreal Times

Yesterday was my last day with Commerce (7th level of hell) Bank. Today I am taking a mental health day before starting my new venture with Cigar Magazine on Monday. I'm truly excited about this new turn of events. I'm excited about a lot of things.

Let's just say that in the last few weeks, so much has happened that I can barely comprehend it all. Some good, some bad. And it's going to get even more muddled in the coming weeks, I'm sure. But there are a couple of things I can take solice in, and that ain't bad. I have a renewed sense of strength. I'm not so afraid of what is around the corner.

So I say...."Bring it!"

~Meg