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Can't go into detail. Have to rant. Feeling so sick and out of it that I can barely stand it. Torture. That's what this is. I can't think straight, can't move without getting dizzy. Can barely type this. Feel horrible all the time. Break downs all day long. What the hell am I doing? I can't handle this! Just want to curl into a ball and sleep...sleep the days away. Stuck in the Pit for another week and can barely make it through the day here. I'm worthless here. There is no point. But I'm broke, need the money. REALLY need the money. Can't let myself go home and curl into that ball. This is so much worse than last time. Why am I being punished? Torture.

I Once Was Blind, But Now I See

Got my glasses. Yay! The world looks so damn pretty now that I can see. heh Got them on Friday. So far, I've either been told my glasses are "interesting" or "funky." I prefer funky since those that say interesting are really thinking "hideous." What, you people have never seen cats eye glasses with rinestones before? ;) Sorry, I insist on sticking with my white trash roots.

Quitting smoking has been going good. I cheated a couple of times, but haven't had a smoke since Saturday. I have a renewed sense of why I want to quit smoking. I feel stronger now. I know I can do it. Besides, I have way more on my plate now to think about. But more on that at another time. Not ready to go into details yet.

Other than that not much to post. Haven't been feeling much like posting, or even writing, lately. It'll pass. I'm just going through a period of chill out. Taking things easy. Not allowing myself to stress. I have so much to say, but I can't blog about it publicly right now. But don't worry, I'm not planning on jumping off any buildings or anything like that. Those of you who are close to me know what it's all about and I'm sure you can wait to hear me rant about it. :) The rest of you will just have to be patient. And it gives you a reason to check back frequently.

Ok, going to leave it at that for now. Till next time!